Tuesday, March 28, 2006
10:28 AM
haiis..been crying since yest evening.
cry and stop and cry.
wad can i do.moi tears suddenly roll out.xin hao tong bahhs.
jus leave miie alone.i don wish to listen bahhs.
wad i heard tat u guys sae.deres re sm tings i cry iish c0s wad u guys sae to miie.
frankly speakin,wad baby told miie jus n0w.to miie it seems moi fault and iim e one who blame.
i noe and understd wad she mean and wad she tryin to tell miie.i no she ish not blamin miie or etc.but to miie moii heart reali pain.i jus feel s freak upp.
yest acc mumi,midnyte acc daddy being crazy.mornin come to sch study.reali fcuk.arghs.
ard 2plus.mumi wake miie upp sae moi dad wen out again and iif he continue lidat confirm one case.i nber bother or tink s much cos i tot he wen to office and slp.
in e end he came back home,he bought beer.den i shut upp.mum was is her room and she came out.she told moi dad sae he cant drink,moi dad sae y cant i.she sae he eatin med.he sae med eat in e mornin wadd.s he keep callin miie go to moi room and slp cos tmr stil hab lesson!i wen into e room.well at tat tym i was msgin and settle smth!i noe iish moi fault too.to make u bcome lidat.euiie c0s of miie os change alot.i stil tinkin abt wad u sae to miie yest.thou i keep cryin.i reali headache!wad u promise miie,u brk.daddy promise us not to drink,he brk it too.s wad i promise iim soriiwee.
den daddy outside e door.mumi don allow him to buy.he keep saein he jus wana go dwnstair!den i wen out.i s call shout at moi dad sae u promise us not to drink.but now u drink again.den i keep cryin.i cry fer one hour plus.i regret wad i sae to daddy.he call miie acc hiim go dwn.s i wen dwn wit him.he stil wana buy.he wen to start his car.i cry like shit!he don eben gv a damn.den i sae don buy and drink le.he sae faster get into e car.i hab no choice.i reali dno wad to do.i cry and get into e car.bfer he drive he oreadi drink two bottle.den e traffic is red,he stil drive and cross.den nearly bang tgt wit e taxi.anw,i was w0rii.but now i tink back.iif reali hab car accident.it knocks miie out.mayb iish a g0od ting bahhs.it makes him realise he cant drive c0s he drink.
he bought two bottle.i regret wad i sae to him was i tot u sae u buy one bottle.den he sae den i drink one bottle.y i regret wad i sae to him e sentence.it shows tat i allow him to drink!reach home mumi look at miie.i reali feel s sick.he brk his promise again.cos he nber drink one bottle.he finish e two bottle tat he bought!i reali wish to tel him sae since u wana drink den i acc u drink wan anot.reali feel s fcuk!tat tym,i hab to face both side.
mornin,6plus mumi ask miie wad daddy tels miie.i sae to him but iim half dead of tokin to her.
she sae she not goin dwn eat brkfast.call miie g0 sch moiself.i actually dnwan go de.but i tink tat iif i don go sch.daddy c miie tings will happen mre bahhs.i go sch os cos i hab maths test todae.iif not i wont eben wana go.thou dey sae i can tk maths test other dae.but e maths paper will be diff but i dnwan to tk diff paper as em!reach sch.wen to chinese lesson.i sit dwn.frwens ask miie wad happen.i dno y moi tears roll out again.bfer i reach sch.i inside e taxii oreadi feel like crying.
i cry mayb cos i keep tinkin yest evenin and midnyte tings and wad i sae and i do.
recess tym tok on e phone i cry again.i feel like slpin.iish beta to slp and nber wake upp.cos i noe i make alot of ppl suffer tgt wit miie.i did promise u guys.but wad those ppl promise which nber done.den iim soriiwee.i stil haben do aniitin hurt on moiself.but i soon will jus wen e dae comes i dno.mayb soon who noes.anw,i nber tink of drink and smoke.i jus wish to c e blood out again frm moi hand.
