Friday, September 28, 2007
10:30 PM
To the dearest pampered kids of on the earth:
aiya, all i can say you'll are the same. i'm talking to the shorter one now. you bloody hell wanna prove to me that you're trying to protect your dearest by texting me. oh wells, first i'm not interested. second, i aint bother what you're going to say. cause it's my life, my blog. aint yours. you're no one here to say anything about me. you wanted everything to stop, then ask yourself first. why even start everything here? hurs, wake up and get a life too? you knew from the start, i will gan you like mad when you started texting me. you can say i change and etc, but really. search your heart, who change and kept lying. hurhurs, you must really wake up your little childish idea my dear(: Now to the, slightly taller one. you to said enough is enough, why still continue posting. wells, i thought my english aint good.Wells, God indeed prove to me that some people's english is worse. HAH! Gracious god, i wonder if they do even know what exctly they're saying. maybe not aye? cause they can even post certain things and actually not know the meaning of it. like, OH MY TIAN! wells, or maybe i think they should really go back schooling life in primary school like teachers teach young kids to know what they're saying. wahhahhaha. pardon me,i'm laughing my ass off currently. urms, guess that's all i've to post for today about certain idiotic people(:Thursday, September 27, 2007
9:47 PM
Thanks for the people who read my post.
i knew that was a long post of mine.
i guess i never waste anytime of anyone especially to the people out there who consistently reading my blog post .
Who’s really interested and know what’s going on here and read I guess I never make you guys feel like lullaby.but to those people who totally got no interest to read,they will just off it but I guess they did not because they are more free and I believe I never waste your time to read.did you see the top right corner?see this x?that’s a close tab,to remind you if you can’t see it just click that and just off it since you read it and feel so lullaby.
I believe I can get better than an A.thanks.oh nice try for you too.I don’t know which part of the above sentence that you do not understand to continue read it since you are interested.thanks for reading man.
Oh don’t mind telling you,to really understand what’s peace in and out this sentence
I guess u really need to check it out what’s the meaning of it. =)
Don't make me laugh my ass off. Cause you're not definitely not reacting like one. Or could i say, you're reacting like a SMALL KID again? Oh, have fun too my dear :D
小妹妹，来妈妈教你做人的道理
stupid kid, grow up.
I didnt ask you to view my blog post, neither did i say it's meant for you.
moreover no name is stated here(:Wednesday, September 26, 2007
11:38 PM
yesterday night,between your conversation with charlotte ,I actually knew everything about it.well,thanks charlotte, sorry to treat you as the middle person between the two of us.thanks for telling me good stuffs about your good friend but i guess i will never understand what you have meant at all.i believe and i've stated clear enuff and so does she.i hope that yesterday’s post will be the last post of hers but i guess after all these have happened, this game will never end.i don't need any judgment from people and I do admit that I am at fault but at least i admitted and did not deny unlike you?I did not act stubborn and i did not want t quarrel by playing this kinda game but i guess is all about standing on our own rights. remember, if someone wants someone else to actually take a joke and don't bother what you post, so why should you even bother what people post in their own blog and you cant even take a joke.
after this post i know everyone will be waiting for the upcoming post that i'm gonna post.
since you wanna start this blog game,oh well,why not continue it.if you don't want it you shouldn't admit it.if you never put a question there,nobody will answer.if you are not sensitive why should you even bother what people have replied without stating any name there?bear in mind that this is my blog.i welcome friends or even strangers to my blog and read my post because there's nothing to hide.so what if i answer?
isn't this is all you want.your post just to let people know that you did that out of no offense.
c'mon who says i can't take jokes?if you really wanna make me stupid you are actually making you,yourself stupid to let everyone know you are big enuff to do all this but lucky you did not.
your actions prove that you have a deprived childhood or maybe is not you,what about your friends?as you said by doing all those is fun and so you come along so it makes no different.thanks for your spelling.
if you don't feel the way right on my blog,why still admit?first and foremost,i dint spell out your BIG name on my blog. and what exactly makes you think that i'm actually referring to you uh? HOHO =)
as you said is just only hands over shoulder what exactly and did I say anything much ?it can be seen that both of you are close and I’m just merely stating the fact.
by saying both of you close is there any problem?why do you even react so big by what I have posted?
haha.telling jiayu,i guess i don't have too.she have eyes to read and she can choose not to even come to my blog and see what i've posted.oh c'mon,is just a post only.not a big deal.my dear jiayu,i didn't wanna mention about your name here but i guess your girlfriend wanna talk about you and pull you into this matter.my dear babe,is a matter between you and i.do you really scare and got no confidence towards your girlfriend that she not gonna trust you.haha.it also can be seen how much you love and scare to lose her to even mention about her.i got nothing much to talk about how close your relationship between you and your friend or even what kinda relationship are you in together with jiayu.you can have my blessing and thanks but i guess i don't need you to tell or even teach me what to do.she got her own eyes and heart to see and to actually feel for herself.just to let you know that i did not even mean anything in that sentence alright.you choose to admit and read it on your own account .nobody force you to read if you are unhappy. =) and don't pretend that you know our story. =)
to even blog and letting the whole world people to know you are so bored that's why you following me.maybe to you its just a plain form of entertainment?haha.to let the people out there to know how childish you are?my dear babe,to really think that you are simple but i guess im wrong.to really believe what you said?do you even believe me?haha.
and you didn't wanna say that?i did not do anything how am i suppose to made you.
well,as i said you can take my blessing because nobody will step into a smooth relationship.do stay happy with her and i believe she will too.do you really know how i treat her?i guess the things you know is also what she tell you.you never even use your eyes to see so please don't make any judgments here. when you don't even know what's going on.how you’re going to treat her in future i don't care as i said i don't even bother how people is going on in their relationship.
i will keep in mind that by saying i loveyou doesn't prove how much you love a person.
actions prove how much you love a person so what?love come and go my dear.
remember what you have now is not forever and nothing is forever.
anyway,you choose to dislike me and i did not even make you to like me in the first place.
dislike me more than you ever did.oh well,but i don’t dislike you more than I ever did.i’m clear that what im talking and posting my dear.as you said we not gonna be friends or enemy.how can I believe your words?are you very sure and confirm by what you said when you are burning mad. i mean what I said and you can take my words.you can choose not to believe me.jiayu can be more clear than anyone.whatever charlotte tell you is all that I’ve said.i do have a true heart and answer unlike some people who just give answer blindly and still given promise.you don’t have to let the whole world to trust you but I guess even you are out there working or talking to people who actually know whats going on and they experience before do you think they will still trust and believe you?haha.yes,you don’t need the whole world to trust and believe you and keep this into your mind that your close people around you not everyone trust you too.do you really think you have the right,deserve and confidence to take the consequences that what you have done and said?my dear babe,if you really know how to think you will not misunderstood what I’m trying to imply here.but if you don’t understand and gonna mistaken it than I’m sorry guess no point posting so much to tell each other.you are the one who makes misunderstanding and think it wrongly for what I’ve posted.
you've your whosoever of GOOD friends, i have mine too. your friends can happily say about me, why can't my friends say about you too? vice versa. LOOKING LIKE A CHIO BU IS GOOD, BUT ACTING LIKE ONE DUA CHIO BU MAKES MY HAIR STAND(quoted by pris) c’mon ie more chio nehxzx, hehex. just wake up some sense of yours, i can't lock up my post cause i don't feel that i've anything to hide. maybe you do have, that's why you wanna lock up your post?what a loser too. =) 90% for friends 10% for public worxz. HOHO, don't make me laugh off my pants.
On a lighter note, i'm meeting my babe tomorrow. awww, can't you feel the LOVE!<3Tuesday, September 25, 2007
7:18 PM
today,
woke up around 10am?
prepared myself and went to work together with my parents.
slacking around and never do much but im gaining weight!
as long as im with my parents they will just treat me like their piggy!
kinda fun and tired.never really learn much and the people out there look at me weird weird.
12plus had my breakfast cum lunch,3plus had my lunch cum dinner.
eat non stop and daddy still can say he's still hungry!god!
messaging my dear babe since morning.thanks my dear.i'm fine.don't worry.
reach home around 6plus going 7pm.
my dear was online and i chat with her.she make me laugh when she's boil.
she aint bad but you seems to mess her life.haha.
she's complaining alot to me.haha.
relax my dear. =)
i don't care whether by doing all those was FUN.
oh well,perhaps, you do have deprieved childhood.
kinda sacastic and childish too.
no offense! =)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
Monday, September 24, 2007
6:43 PM
just reach home not long.
kinda study together with pris at starbuck.
around 4plus leave there and went for a smoke saw charmaine and she smoke too.
kinda suprise that she smoke.accompany babe went to buy muffin for her friend and we left there around 5plus.took train back to amk and i went to toilet n view some shops.
the clothes not bad and when i look inside the shop i saw fish girlfriend.
hmm,seriously speaking the clothes not bad.have time will go down and take alook.
went to toilet and i saw that bung really look like a guy and i was wondering how come a guy went to a girl toilet.well,she really look like guy.kinda shock and well,is her friend.they walk in front of me well we walk the same direction and they are close.hand over the shoulder.
walking home chatting with babe.damn funny.you never fail to make me laugh and really cannot take it.you are damn adorable.
haven't been eating the whole day and i guess i'm not eating. =)
i don't feel anything at all even when i look at you.
i don't even care whether how you view me.
even thou i feel abhor before but it seems like i've get rid it out of my heart.
happily staying with her.my blessing.
11:19 AM
yesterday,
had dinner with my parents.
after dinner went down to amk central to buy mooncake.
fiona is growing fat! =\ going diet soon. =)
reach home around 9pm.chattin on the phone with babe well she's outside with that piggy.
chat awhile after that call my dear sharon and we chatted very long.
sorry my dear,that i never return back call to you.
watch tv from 11pm-1am.
chatted on the phone with you*
i tired to hold my temper and treating you nice.
but i realise you always change my mood and turn it sulky.damn sucks!
yes,i've been crying because my mentally unstable but even if i'm not i realise i aint the person that can walk the whole life with you.my feeling never be strong and will never be with you.
is not because of you that's why i cried.we've already break our communcation.
sleep around 2plus going 3am
sleeping with tears.. =)
woke up not long.
going to prepare soon and go out to settle daddy things and meet babe at city hall.
i'm tired and headache. =^
wanted to go swimming today with gongong but she needa work. -.-
is all because of you.what a slut.
finally i understand what's fugly.
suite you. =)
Sunday, September 23, 2007
6:00 PM
yesterday night cried suddenly.
feeling so miserable and unstable.
i'm sorry that i've attitude you but at the same time im stating the fact.
you don't have to say or do anything because is not your fault too.
whole body feel not energy and kinda pain.
working today but i never go for work.
since i wanna quit so before they set me i just quit the job.
woke up around 11plus going 12.
wanted to meet duncan but never,went down to east coast to fixed the brake.
nearly fall down but i never.haha. =\ try the brake,it was ok.
reach house downstair around 4pm.
meet up duncan slacking around at carpark playing roller blade.keep disturbing me and we nearly fall together.
chatting with babe for the whole afternoon.she damn funny.
saying that bitch look so typical ahlian.haha.
is not easy my dear,but if you really can i congrats to you. =)
babe,
how i wish i can but i can't
i wanna leave here just you and me.
i believe we leave here happily with no worries.
Saturday, September 22, 2007
8:51 PM
today,
woke up around 9plus prepared going to take bus to work.
mummy suddenly ask me to accompany her to eat breakfast so i accompany her and i took cab to work.so good of me. =))))))))))))))
reach work place quite early.feel like sleeping when im in the changing room.the weather is sooo hottttttt today!drag my time,smoking away.
i'm not ok and my mood sucks alright.im damn down this morning but after work i was fine.
messaging my dear babe since morning until i went for work and after i finish work,
funny her.damn cute.
after work meet up my parents have dinner together.
stupid daddy gimmi so much rice la.i'm not a pig daddy!
you are making me fat again. =^
after dinner went home take roller blade,went down to bishan park to play and guess what.
i fall down twice and my left knee got blue black now!hand and butt very pain.
i still can laugh out loud when i fall.haha.
daddy gonna bring to the shop and fix the break for me.
i gonna learn with no brake one day and learn how to use Tbrake.
reach home around 8plus going 9pm.
amk hub there got fireworks to watch but nothing much and i don't find it nice too.
i decided to quit my job!
all thanks to you my dear siti,giving me 'long' hours for work.
gonna help out daddy to work?maybe gonna find other job and work.
i don't know why but i know you love me alot suddenly.
i'm sorry but i don't wish too.take care babe.
you make me realise you are damn sucks.
and i don't stand any place in your heart anymore.
are you gonna be the one
whom i going with for life. =?
Friday, September 21, 2007
9:34 PM
today,
attend school and guess what.
only 6people attend to school today.
leave the class around 9plus.went out smoke together with eugene.
slack around went to change clothe and went out with charlotte to have breakfast plus lunch.
damn it full and growing fat.cannot take it.
after that,head down to east coast to take alook roller blade.
call daddy up and tell him the price and he say he's coming down together with mummy and brother.he bought roller blade for both of us. =))))))))))))))))))))))))))
hehe,but i gna die with it.so long never play already and i bought it without break. =\
he want me to learn and not using any break. =^
gonna learn maybe next week.haha.
if really cannot i gonna buy it myself and fix it.
went to have dinner at hongkong cafe.
reach home around 8plus and went house downstair accompany charlotte awhile.
you are so tired and you are so free.take care when you having trging tomorrow and enjoy your bbq with ur badminton friends. +)
i wanted but i never.
i couldn't and i can't.i'm sorry.
but i don't even have that feel and i don't feel it at all.
i'm working tomorrow. =\
don't feel like working suddenly but i gonna work to earn money.
my whole mind is all about you.
i loveyou.take care my dear.
not gonna see you for long.
gonna missyou badly. <3
bring me along and leave here.
Thursday, September 20, 2007
6:09 PM
today,
reach school around 3plus and they tell me teacher got meeting.
arghs.make me travel here and there and make me sweat.
make me rush here and there.took bus back home and meet up duncan.
hopefully she can work at vivo.hehe.
i wanna change my job!
what a bitch man.your face already very bitch.stop acting because your looks disgusting alright.wanna act like you are hot and good with everything.oh please.
everyone is much more better than you.
i'm sorry babe,i don't wish to hide from you but i don't wanna treat you unfair.
i hope you will find someone else who can walk and spent the whole life with you.
i know i'm not the one.i don't wish to hurt you deeply but i know i hurt you already.
since we never really start,i don't wish to continue and make things more complicated.
no point moving on when you another partner is not moving on together wit you.
i still loveyou my dear.huggs. <3
please take care of yourself.i know you not feeling well.
if you really wanna kill me just come ahead.
i'm always here waiting for you.wanna say others please say yourself and look into the mirror.
you ain't perfect at all.love is always hurt alright.but you did it more than i do.
you don't even have the right to even say me when at the same time you are saying yourself.
your age is older than me but i guess your brain is smaller than me.
even thou you are my friend and the very close one but that was the past because you have disgrace yourself.i'm sorry to say it this way but i know you will not be the one who coming to see what i've post.
no name stated. =) wanna be the one just go ahead.
i maybe evil to others now since everyone wanna mess with me than go ahead.
since you guys want it this way i'm just returning back to you guys.
fiona sucks alright.because everyone of you just fuck me up.
i missyou.always right here just for you.
thanks for everything that you have done for me.
never regret having you in my life.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
6:30 PM
attend to school today.
late again.haha.
reach school playing around. =x
went to smoke together with hock ann.
stupid him.keep ask me to go home but i never.
he went home and i went back to class alone and suddenly mrs quek ask if im alright anot.
i tell her said ya,im fine.why?she replied:"i heard that you going to quit school?"
i said ya,because from the start till now i learn nothing.she want me to study now but i guess is hard for me because i don't know where to start at all. =\
thanks my dear.funny and cute you always stay.
to some people,they are very happy that i gonna quit school but now im not gonna quit so i guess i've made disappointment to you guys.im going to stay.
stop giving that kinda fucking face when you guys are in the wrong.whatever it is.
we don't owe you guys anything so since you guys don't dare to even take any consequences,in the first place shouldn't even talk so much and please wanna act please do well your role.it sucks when you actually mess it up you know.haha.whatever alright.i don't give a fuck.
please don't even think that i'm lonely without you guys or even think i need you guys to even live in that class.im who i am who lead my life myself.thank god that i don't have to be with you guys and mess up everything together.
hey tjy,
don't ever feel awkward.no point blaming or apologise to me too.
it will not make any changes am i right.
so just let it be.im still here for you if you need me.
take care.have time meet up when you are free. =)
i'm wrong i know.
i shouldn't have tell you how i felt towards you.
that was the past and i thought i could go with you now but i can't.
the feeling isn't right at all and when you tell me saying that when mag hugg me you actually jealous.i was suprise that you said that.i need you my dear,i don't wish you to leave but is your life.i can't be the one who actually walk together with you because the need is not the need that i want from you.is not the love at all.im sorry babe.but i still loveyou alright.i know how you feel.i also never expected you will put your feeling so deep into it.
i don't wish things to turn out this way,i thought things will be alright when i accept you.
i was wrong and damn wrong.i'm sorry babe.
i'm still here always miss and loveyou alright.huggs. <3
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
7:52 PM
was late for lesson but also never mind since nothing to do in class.
slacking around and chat wit hoe gern.he sit beside me and took my phone to play game until low batt but i took his charger to charge my phone.thanks. =)
went to audi together with him,he damn idiot but he's nice at time.
slack around there went for the next lesson.he damn noisy.bth.
before school ends we left the class and went to eat.very full after eating the noodles up.
daddy fetch me up.wanted to go whitesand but he say don't need already.
It's funny how you think you really know yourself
Like you would never lose yourself to someone else
And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me
Silly silly me
I should have never listened to a word you said
But I was always giving in to promises
I never should have gone for
I should never long for you no matter how hard it gets
And I want this to be over
I so want this to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you
Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore
If you had only told me how you really felt
I could have put my feelings into someone else
But I was busy thinkin'
I was where I was supposed to be
Silly silly me
But there was something 'bout you that I couldn't resist
Can't put my finger on it but whatever it is
I never should have stood for it
I know you're no good for me
And that's the way it is
And I want it to be over
I so want it to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you
Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore
I tell myself
Get over you
It's over right
Right thing to do
And just when I thought I was done
You pull me in for another run
I can't take this I won't take this
I can't do this
I Won't do it
Even if I know in the end somehow it always comes back to you
i no longer need you in your life,so does you.
well,being your friend?i guess you don't need me as your friend too.
wanna be close or even good friend i guess i don't deserve it is because even you choose to be you never treat me like one.do your part first if you want it.
i don't hate you and i will never hate you for what you said and done.
i'm still here for you,tjy. =)
hey babe,you're hot.
never expected things will turn out this way but is a good start.
it might be ridiculous to you guys but we are serious this time.
ilove and missyou always my dear.
i hope things go smooth for us and we last.
im leaving the school and not going back anymore. =)
this week will be the last week for me staying in that school.
thanks my dear,that you have done for me and said to me,everything.
i will never forget you and you always stay in my heart.happy knowing you and ones like you before even now but i still move on.will missyou even thou we not gonna see each other after holiday ends.
i don't know why you gimmi that kinda weird face but i know what you are thinking10:36 AM
yesterday,
attend to school.leave school quite early.
but reach home quite late.i don't know why i took so long to reach home.
watch tv,bathe then call babe at the same time watching tv.
after watching tv,do house work. =\
watch tv again. =?
wanted to sleep at 10pm.surprising?so early.
but end up i can't so i sleep around 1230am if im not wrong.
today,
woke up around 10am.
nobody at home,my parents slept quite late yesterday but woke up early than me!
im tired but i can't get to sleep.
im late for school =! going next lesson later.going to prepare soon. =^
what a bitch.
never expected that you will dislike her too.haha.
check it out what will happen then.
but,who will even give a fuck so just fuck it off.
Monday, September 17, 2007
11:11 AM
just woke up not long.headache. =\
wonder should i attend school not. =x
if not i going still needa go out to help babe to buy things.
is your choice alright and i seriously never get affected by what you said to me alright.
don't ask me what i want because i don't see there's any point to even tell you my answer.
telling you,my answer then after that change your answer.whats the point?
you got no true heart and you will not have a true answer.i'm not gonna wait for your answer.
after so long you made me realise you are actually the same as another two idiots!
it wasn't too late after all.haha.
by then i guess you will have other girls so just go ahead alright.
i don't give a fuck about it at all. .)
anyway,do well your part before saying others because i will not hurt her.
ilove her more than anyone so even if i hurt her you will see who will protect who then.haha.
im confidence and sure that im better than you my dear.
still friends but no longer that close.
i don't trust anyone?hmm.
fighting over a girl.haha.
babe,iloveyou for who you are and you the perfect one.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
5:34 PM
today,
lazy to wake up.
wanna sleep more but still wake up prepared myself to get out for work!
since is only 5 1/2 hours of work.well,is not i wanna work less but alot of people coming for attachment so they don't need so much people to work.
hey,babe i missyou so much.haha
went home after work.
i realise and lucky man.not together with you not history gonna repeat.
well,i never really get bother by what you said to me,everything.
let it go and stop your shit out of here.
i loved you endlessly,when you weren't there for me.
so now it's time to leave and make it alone.
i know that i can't take no more it ain't no lie.
don't wanna be a fool for you.just another player in your game for two.
don't really wanna make it tough,i just wanna tell you that i had enough.
i'm signin' offSaturday, September 15, 2007
9:22 PM
i just read someone blog.i can actually understand and even feel it.
my dear babe,don't get bother it alright.remember what i said to you.
you always love by me alright.huggs. <3
today,
went to work and finish work early and return back home.
prepare get out of the house and had dinner with my parents together with my brother.
had a great dinner. =))))))))))))))
i realise all along you show no respect on yourself and others well you are messaging.
scolding so much that you want and don't even know who you actually scolding i guess.
why not scold it out well you are messaging and let her hear?don't give a damn what you've type all the vulgarities too.aint my business because im not having the problem.
whatever it is,leaving your life is a great thing for you.
whatever it is all the best to you and her since you want it and is your wish.
i don't see there's any point to even give a damn about it when im not in the fault now.
so whatever happens im not gonna know and understand because i don't deserve the bloody attitude that you actually gimmi.why should i care when you actually called me not to even give a fuck to bother about it.haha.
i've seen thru everything for what you've done.
you give love a bad name.
it sucks,you know!
no name stated so if you wanna be the one than let it be. .)
im sorry to you,my dear to actually tell you this way to let it go but im serious.
i don't know what are you thinking even thou you say i understand you.
i actually feel weird when you tell me saying that you gonna consider.haha.
i wanna leave singapore and i believe you can bring me.
i missyou but.. you know.answer is all the same. .)
if you love me then thank you
if you hate me then fuck you
Friday, September 14, 2007
8:08 PM
yesterday,
slept quite late.
i cried until i got swollen eyes.
today,
attend school.
nothing much.sit down there alone and i don't know why i keep coughing.
test today!that's great that i actually don't even know how to do and thanks my dear,you again to let me to copy.haha.he's kind.i love him alot. =))))))
after school,wanted to meet charlotte but guess she's still not awake so i actually went down to orq to find sharon and slack around there.ate cesar salad!very full and i never finish.
that bloody tina seems to be the same.dislike her man.
thanks babe.iloveyou so much.
chatted with my dear mag and telling her the truth.haha.damn funny.you are slow my dear.
wait for sharon to finish work and we went down to rc to view the new opening coffeeclub.
don't really like it. =? went down to suntec to have lunch plus dinner.very full. =^
meet up charlotte at marina square and took back my phone.send sharon off and puff is all we do.waiting for bus back home.im getting damn tired.sleep early tonight.
not gonna bother me and not gonna bother anyone and anything anymore.
working tomorrow. =( im getting lazy.fuck man
im going crazy over you
i missyou.thanks for everything.loves <3
Thursday, September 13, 2007
8:33 PM
today,
wanted but never attend to school and still considering whether should i quit.
daddy fetch me and mummy out for lunch.heavy lunch and after that meal make me feel very weak.i feel like vomit and i feel like fainting but of course i never.
that meal is my breakfast lunch plus dinner,really make me feel damn sick.
i have been tearing while im helping my dad.they didn't know about it.
on my way home,i feel like tearing again.just fuck man.what fuck i've done.
i realise she really look alike ade.walking the same path as sharon.
but sharon is moving on already i guess.
telling things different and different timing and date.
wow,isnt it great that im a silly who always trust her and even believe at the same time putting hope.want me to flirt being selfish who don't bother about how people feel,yes is hard for me because too many things happen and make me aint the past of me.
the past of me who really don't even give a damn about anyone out there or even how they feel for me and everything,is totally numb.
why the fuck am i the one who bother about everything.
what's true love to you telling me different thing always is all you know.
playing with me.you say you don't.make it clear what's playing with me.there's alot of meaning.telling lies again and again.fuck it off man.true friends or even good friend.now im even your friend you have been lying to me.im the one who auto all along.saying that you won't be moving on and you are moving on real fast as i do.telling me can't let go all kinda lies.sweet and bad stuffs all in the messages.now i know why she say you are the one that really know how to sweet talk.telling me you are being yourself same time being a selfish who knows how to think about yourself and friends.maybe that girl is better than me.oh whatever.wanna move on than go ahead.i aint like you who love to lie telling and giving fake answer and hope.
yes waiting is all i do and what i know.cause it come out true from my heart and i mean it.
fucking tears never stop dropping.i really damn it fuck up with it.
is it true that you want me you just come to me and you don't want me you just leave and just find the others.am i just a hotel to you.12:54 PM
went out to have breakfast,lunch plus dinner with my aunt at jack's place around evening.
really had a heavy dinner.is not a great dinner at all.haha
we chatted alot and i told her say im not gonna study and i wanna quit.
i told alot of people and everyone is like asking what am i gonna do after i quit.
if i know where im heading and i know what im going to study then i quit.
yes,my mind already set that i wanna quit school.alot of people wash brain me but,i really feel that im damn wasting time.i needa rest and im damn confuse!
reach home around 8plus?helped my dad to do his work.
online n helped sharon to do somethings then watch tv.
on the phone with my dear sharon for one hour,we never stop laughing and her that meimei damn cute and funny.
fiona is fat and she's getting fat! =\
yesterday night sleep around 3plus going 4am!
wake up around 11plus.mummy woke me up.
if not im still dreaming and i nearly cried and i feel like crying after i woke up.
i missyou alot. =^ =\ =( =% even in that dream i really don't understand.
it goes the same as reality.
chatted with mag and nicol yesterday night and he suggest me to finish this year.
even if i finish this year i can't get any cert too.studying more than half a year im learning nothing.yes,nobody love to study.everyone is forcing themselves to study.i totally got no interest and im not making any effort and at the same time people around me giving me answer to pass my exams i ain't happy because im not the one who know how to do but the others and i really wanna study hard but i can't get it thru my mind and i bloody don't even understand what the hell is going.she teach me everything still i don't understand.maybe im slow and bet that teacher totally got no patience to even teach.that's the impression that she gimmi and make me no longer talk to her or even learn anything.even they gimmi answer i copy blindly i don't even know what the hell is that.
some people ask me not to study and just quit and just work with them and give myself a break.
well,i needa break even thou im quit i will not go work as a full timer. =)))))
some people ask me to quit and go for the course that i really want.it really make me consider alot.
i told sharon about it,i know she's unhappy because she want me to study and she actually wanted to help me but damn it.i really don't understand and if i fail and i go up to next year i still needa repeat everything this year.should i or should i not attend school?im late already.i guess warning letter is coming to my house soon.yungzhi already got it.i guess the next one is me!
should i go down orq?haha.i know you miss me. =d i never bother to think much about relationship soooooooooo please stop qus me and even want answer from me,thanks people out there who have been qus and want answer from me. =s
i know who i really want,at the same time i guess is gone.
result seems to be there and even thou im kinda awake still,holding on.
love is a foolish things by doing all this for your love one?haha.
but everyone is doing the same thing isnt it true.that's why love is blind and we are more blind?
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
10:53 AM
yesterday,
went down to orq.all coffeeclub ppl see me like damn shock.
haha.i say hi to tina,she gimmi a weird face like as if we never see each other before.
don't bother to give a damn.sooooo longggggg never see mag already.
first thing she see me she hugg me.i missyou my dear.haha.
she str8 pull me out and smoke and we chatted.
she was like asking you are mine right.i was like =?
i str8 tell her i not sure if you are serious when you ask me for stead that time.
it was very long ago when i went down to rc to find her.is so obvious that she can't put down doreen la please.she's acting a flirt now but she said that she don't even know how too.action shows everything so clearly mag.haha.sharon came out and i realise she pierce her tongue.that mag didn't know until i ask sharon.she chase sharon and don't allow her to go.laugh like crazy.
all orq people know that im sharon gf.they are playing mad.i guess this is why they gimmi a weird face and reaction.tina said i grow slim while before i reach i told sharon before that im fat.haha.tina asked sharon whether im fat or slim and sharon say fat. =x
after tina saw me she asked sharon said that i tot you say fiona grow fat.haha.
sharon said im just teasing you.accompany sharon to marina square have lunch,went to suntec walk around then chinatown.she bought a pair of ear ring for her godmother then we went to have dessert.yummy. =))))))))*
after dessert went home.chatted alot with her today and really had fun today.
thanks sharon,going out with you really got no stress.glad to heard that from you too.
at night,msg mag and disturb her.i ask her if she's jealous and she say yes because sharon never run out of girls falling for her.i ask if she got feeling for me she never really answer my qus but sharon say i think mag like you.haha.kinda stupid.but i know mag don't like me.she just wanna compare with sharon and get sharon girl!mag rushing to find a gf and is hard to find a gf that will put you first before your friends.she feel lonely and she's kinda flirting while she say she's not.whatever.haha.
today,
never attend to school.hehe =x
im headache now.i don't know why.but i can't get back to sleep.
im tired and keep yawning.damn irritating. =\
going to have breakfast,lunch and dinner around 4plus together with aunt.
think she's busy.early morning receive sharon messages.damn funny.
those coffeeclub people there keep disturb her.my dear sharon please take care urself.
sick and now still got fever.take more care ok.iloveyou.muacks.
sharon meimei really damn funny and cute.she really drive us crazy and cheer our day up.
my new pl gf,sharon.stead for half a year.haha.
who understand me. =? nobody. =^
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
11:41 AM
have been away.
isnt it great for me and some people out there =?
everyday,was thinking and don't know what the hell im fear of.
my heart damn hurt whenever i think of it.
if i can stay in other country i will never be back here again.
yes,i may wanna avoid things happening here because i can't accpet the fact.
even how much talking we do it seems useless.time prove everything?haha.
god can't make decision for us at times,problems lies on you and it depends on you.
whatever.im sick of tired by doing the talking always.
misunderstanding always come towards me.it so obvious that they don't need me.
i had enuff too.devil me gonna be out soon =))
what's the point of being a good person at times?when they are the one who making the mistake and pushing the blame.haha.wtf.
make this clear to everyone that if you guys wanna talk to me,prepare that i will shoot it back because i have my own view too and if you guys can't bloody accept it than don't talk to me because from the start im just stating the fact.want me to shut up than rather don't come and talk to me.isnt it meaningless talking to someone and that bloody person just don't give a damn about you and telling you saying that she don't care about everything anymore.fuck man.this is what you guys show me.im just returning back.i done nothing wrong so i guess i don't need you guys anymore.
i aint wrong at all. =)
at the same time it prove that you guys don't understand me at all.
need me just come to me and telling me so much,after everything is still me,the one doing everything and settle everything.what's the point?end up,the return is all this.thanks man.
i will always remember,you guys are totally selfish.want chances from someone when you guys need it?at the same time you guys don't wanna give the others a chance.so petty of you guys and im so pity for you guys.
thanks for the one that suggestion and stupid idiot of you guys doing somethings that actually you guys are the one taking the consquences at the same time never bother to think so far.
isnt it great that everything happen and it turn out so nice.
yesterday,
attend to school.walking alone isnt it a bad thing huh.
schoolmates but not forever friends.even thou don't have them,life have to goes on.
don't have them i still have other people to chat,doesn't mean that the whole world people is dead.teacher ask me,why i sit alone but never join them?there's nothing to talk so why should i even bother to sit with them.being alone at times isnt bad too. =))))))))))))))))
never bother to tell her much to create more problems out and more misunderstanding.
im clear for what i have said.unlike some of them out there.action shows everything.isnt it clear that what you guys have said and done is totally different.don't bullshit in front of me anymore.
i aint the past of me. turning bad to worse and worst. =?
things happen will always change a person.how long am i gonna change?
never will i be the good one. =]]]]] get this clear everyone.
chatting on the phone with sharon and left the school before school ends.
on my way,happy chatting with her going to meet leon and pris up.char came along.all smokers.kinda shock that she tell me saying that mz also smoke.g0sh.surprising.she went off with mz for trging.
eat double cheeseburger and it settle my 3meal a day. =x
chat with leon alot man.she damn pissed with herself.damn funny.
never expected you will have a idiot ex gf.lucky im not her friend if not i gonna walk in a miserable life together with her.im not saying that she's dumb or mean to say her but simple action she don't even do it.so it so obvious that she choose this way than let it be.
at times,i really wonder whats the point of getting back?she will never awake and is so obvious.
left alone around 6plus going 7pm?change bus back home.
reach home,do housework and watch tv then bathe and rest.
today,
wanted to attend school but never.
daddy accompany mummy go hospital so im alone at home.
told them saying that im attending school. =\
going to find my dear sharon later.i miss and loveyou.muacks.
she's getting sick and i realise im getting sick too.
i don't know why im so tired this few days.every night sleep quite late.
starting work soon and im gonna be dead. =^ irritating.
im sorry nicholas.is not i don't believe you and i don't see there's any point that i gonna trust you by what you are saying to me and everything.it had been so long and still,why do you even bother to wait.i thought you already give up on me and no longer telling me all that.
im clear that we can only be friends.thanks for telling me everything and i can't get it right thru my mind because im still a crk.
i had enuff of everything but still,im right here waiting.
i mean it i do it,my answer to you is a cfm answer.
making disappointment to me again and again never make me fall.
because,i always stand up again and again to face this test.
i can take it doesn't mean im strong doesnt mean im independent.
nobody is independent at all is because there will always be someone to be there for you.
even there's no one i blif there's god helping.
things isnt going right,i know.who is the one who want it this way?
nobody is clear by what they are doing at times,mistake always repeat.
is that what we want?answer and picture is so clear.
simple answer,if people can avoid they choose to run away and let everything down and everyone down because they choose not to even settle it themselves.no matter what,there's one day the matter have to be solve.
maybe to some people,if i don't settle the things people might forget it and give me a chance?
chances given so much when they are still survive and what if they are gone?want chances again?get it from?
regret always stay
im getting myself awake.
Monday, September 03, 2007
6:40 PM
yesterday night,
accompany duncan and help her to do things.
hope your wife will like it.haha.
reach home around 11plus.watch tv until 1am.
look at daddy,he standing near the windows gazing at the stars.
kinda worry,but still there's nothing much we can do.
today attend to school.
attend class and take test but never finish.
after that,attend thy lesson take thy test.
went back to class to take the test again,finally i get her to sign.
she never sign means i can't pass the test.
after school str8 go home.going to help mummy to do housework.
alot of clothes to wash. =\
everyone have different kinda view.
nobody is right or wrong by saying.
after all,is about debate. :)))))))))))
gonna be away for a few days..
don't bother to care and concern..
12:32 AM
yesterday,
was waiting for ekin to called me and meet her but she did not contact me at all.
went to my room,playing game until i sleep. =\
wake up around 6plus going 7pm.went to changi village to eat,walk around.
went down to downtown east to find my brother,mummy bought one jeans.
went back to changi village,sit there drink and eat again.growing fat =^
walk around the park,thinking lots.
mummy afternoon,saying that daddy got illness.
never bother much because she cant say much,but i ask her if it can be cure but she say no.
is kinda serious so at that point of time i was thinking,he got cancer.
his report haven't come out but i read the paper,he actually got liver disease.
waited for my brother and we went home together.reach home around 2am.
sleep around 4am.playing game till i sleep.
today,
wake up,around 11plus if im not wrong.
busy doing housework,bathe around 2plus.
went grandma house to have lunch,stay there till 4plus.
accompany mummy buy 4d at amk central then went to bank.
going to meet duncan..
walking alone.. :)
Saturday, September 01, 2007
12:11 PM
yesterday,
wake up around 6plus,prepare get out of the house take bus to school.
reach school around 8plus.surprising anne came.
i guess mrs quek surprise that i went to school too.haha.
the way she look at me.weird =? guess she never expected that i will be attend.
happy teacher's day to you,mrs quek.
stupid nicol damn disturbing.he disturb anne that time damn funny.
safiyee mummy cook mee fen and he bring it to school,they still bought snacks,drinks and black forest cake for teacher.so sweet of them.
they took photos of the cake and take a short video.
well,i never eat much.he ask if i wanna eat anot,but i cant eat and i don't feel like eating.
i just drink water,after that teacher want us to eat the cake and stupid nicol said"cher,they want you to serve them." she really serve the cake to anne but i take myself.haha.damn paiseh can.
all thanks to nicol.i disturb him,he disturb other malay guy because of the cherry.
mrs quek suddenly chat with me.at times,really find that she's nice.
maybe after what have been happen,she realise at times she's at fault too.
hock ann and eugene came around 9plus-10?so nice of her,serve them food.
that idiot damn bored i guess,he play with the cake and he took the cream up and put it on the tissue paper and keep saying he gonna use the cream and disturb me.
the school finish at 10am.i get out of the class and they chase me with the cream.but,they never do anything. :))))))))))))))))))))))
tot that class gonna be damn b0red but got hock ann and him is noisy enuff.
after school str8 take bus back to amk hub.thinking if wanna go back to secondary school but never.do miss mrs seah and mr ong but kinda bored.going down alone. =\
hopefully,they are doing fine. =)
bought a shirt at bus stop shop.
went down to polyclinic to find mummy and accompany her.after change her dressing went to have lunch together.after lunch,daddy send us back home.
im b0red =\ parents ask if i wanna go down office,so i went.
help out daddy,at the same time learn new things there.reach home around evening.
the house is damn mess,thanks to my brother.everyone is angry with him.
went out awhile reach home around 8plus.mummy mopping the floor and nobody helping her.
so i helped her,she cant do much and cant touch water but she still doing it.lucky she give birth to a girl if she gonna depend on my brother i guess she gonna be damn dead.
after mopping,wash clothes,watch tv,hang up clothes then bathe.
stay inside my room keep playing game until i very tired.sleep quite early yesterday.
today,wake up around 10plus.
accompany mummy had breakfast at mac.
after eating,accompany her buy 4D str8 come back home.
wash clothes,hang up clothes.going to prepare soon,going out awhile.
take care everyone. :)))))))))))
