Tuesday, September 19, 2006
11:29 AM
didn't go to school for two days!
previous night,throat quite pain till i can't sleep.
yesterday,m0rning went to see doctor.
after that,went back home to rest.around afternoon.felicia came to my house,because i wanted to study but i seriously no energy to do anything.mum called back home and say everytime on air con for people and two person hug together and sleep.just what the shit la k.was shouting at my brother and her together when we on the phone.she say,you are talking on the phone and you better don't shout at me.who the hell call and shouted at me la.i say don't talk to me lo.she say hang up the call,she haven't say finish i hang up the call and went into my room.damn bloody shit.
today,
never go school.very tired.
at home also nothing to eat.will see how later.Sunday, September 17, 2006
3:49 PM
yesterday,
felicia came to my house to study with me.actually meet up at mac but ended up alot of them meet us quite late so call felicia to come to my house first.went to eat together with my parents than meet up weiru and fion.steff wanted to come but end up never.meeting charlotte but because of the bone than spoilt her mood.so funny la.ended up she still came and meet us because she can take out the bone.went to lavendar food court to eat and have our dinner there.after eating,weiru so cute lo.took my hang bag.fion accompany charlotte but don't know how they play till they fall down.went back home together with fion and charlotte.felicia drop down first than weiru drop down at j8 took train back home.left fion,charlotte and me.time still early.wanted to eat kfc potato but didn't eat because too many people.call my mum hp and she tell me say she at bugis.she don't know to pronounce.so funny the way she pronounce.went to bugis to find my mum together with both of them.mum bought jeans.i bought mickeyy mouse slippers and skirt.charlotte bought coconut drink for me but sorry that i can't drink.so she have to finish it up two coconut drink.=x went back to amk,mum and brother haven't eat dinner.so went to mac eat and slack.i eat alot =x grow fat more.
midnight,
mum suddenly came into my room and say do you know that your dad went out?i say i don't know and went back to sleep.but didn't sleep well at first because mum makes alot of noise.she on tv and watch.i thought was my dad because someone open the door.this m0rning,brother came into my room and say do you know dad went out i say i know.i say he haven't reach home mehs?brother say nope.dad just came home.didn't ask much.don't bother them.no point too.mum till now still staying inside the room and don't want to come out.Friday, September 15, 2006
6:00 PM
today,
wake up around 11am.
yesterday was kind of tired.so went to bed sleep quite early.i sleep around 14hours.
went down eat with my dad and mum.came home watch tv.after that,went to study.
ended up online and study using internet.i think i slack quite alot.will continue study later i guess?found some question to do in internet.chat with friends.
alot of unhappy things going on but is over.don't wish to talk about it and no use continue unhappy subject.whatever it is. hack care.
my perfect.thanks.you cheer me up =]]
my dear.i will love and be there for you no matter what ok.l0vey0u muacks =]]*
you guys may be guessing who is it.but nobody will know who's the person.so don't have to guess. =]]
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
11:50 AM
11sept 2006
happy memories of you and me in my dream will always remember and stay in my heart. =]]*
today,
charlotte came to school to fetch me back home after my paper.went out around afternoon to meet up felicia,melody,yeowei,sinyi,adeline and nadia.heard that got one bung get no. from melody.guess she going to turn crooks ba.was suprise that the bung name steff will get no. from her and that bung indeed very good looking.went to toa payoh just to see her and we chat.not bad la.we went to raffles city.steff come together because she ask melody if she wants steff to go anot.ended up we went together.walk around raffles city and we saw meixiang.she working at there.after that went to marina square and walk around.find that there nothing much.i don't know what job to do but i only remember suntec.so charlotte went back to raffles city and work and we went to suntec.happy to know steff =]] and happy of other things.you cheer my day up.thanks.my day wasn't good.getting fcuk up la.
12sept 2006
was dreaming and the stupid alarm wake me up la.thinking why i have to wake up so early than i realise that i have cpa paper.if not i'm still dreaming.missyou so much.went to meet fion because she send me to school.after my paper finish went to meet charlotte eat and went home have tuition.after that,went to sleep.don't know what happen to me.guess i going sick soon ba.
13sept 2006
today,paper really going mad.i really damn fcuk up todaey paper.really can die.i find that i mess it up together.stupid prelim paper really makes me don't feel like study la.damn shit.not in the good mood.leave me alone.byeThursday, September 07, 2006
11:21 AM
m0rning,wake up thought my mum is washing clothes?
but the whole house so quiet.nobody at home.think about yesterday night?my dad told me that my mum and him going out work today at 8am.he say want to wake me up and go work together?g0sh.i tell him say see first.see whether if i can wake up not?ended up i wake up at 11am.online rotting.want to hang out clothes but till now i still sit here chatting.hahas =P
pooreni,i don't know what to say to console you but don't think so much alrights.i love you my dear.muacks =]]*
today weather makes me feel so early and feel like staying with my bed and sleep like a pig.but the time makes me feel so late and i have to wake up.but to do nothing.going to study at home?
online,my perfect wasn't online at all.this whole week so b usy.kinda of bored.chatting with you really happy than everything. =]]* take care yourself outside.L0VESWednesday, September 06, 2006
12:58 PM
m0rning,mum wake me up but i didn't get up at all.
i went back to sleep till 11plus than wake up and i realise the whole house is so quiet so i wake up.waiting for my brother to reach home than can wat toegther with him?daddy yesterday night remind me wait for my brother to reach home than i can go out.guess i today not going out but i going to stay at home the whole day studying.
i realise.
whenever you online.
chatting with you just cheer my day up.
thanks for everything.
i will continue my love for you till it fade.
just love the way you are.is so cute =]]*
enjoy your everyday and take care yourself,busy woman,mr owl,my perfect ^.^
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
8:59 PM
today,
wake up at 9am.went to shower and prepare myself.
went to bus stop and wait for bus but the bus so slow.going to 10am.1030 start the listening.tingting was like saying if 10am start?so i went to take cab and i reach school early than her.waiting for her in school canteen.went up to fourth floor.saw borlian but didn't say hi.just find that,he abit hopeless.always change stead like change clothes.when people like him,he will like just accept the person.can't take it man.today chinese listening still not.is easy than english listening.think my english listening will pull my marks down and i might fail my english paper?hais.may god pray hard for me that i will pass all subject.of cause i going to score for my eoa,cpa.maths,chinese will just pass i guess?i just can't get it well. =[[ sadded
went back home after that,wanted to sleep but didn't.went to meet casper.after that,fion came and find me at mac.i actually have to study damn hard for my maths but ended up i didn't study much at all.i only ask charlotte those question that i don't know how to do and i keep go out smoke.i today really smoke alot.share money with casper and smoke but she didn't smoke much.everyone was like saying i smoke alot la.i smoke till i very full.casper went off after that weiru came.meet her at mos because charlotte wanted to go aracde play but we reach there she say she don't want to play so we slack at mos quite long.very bored.so we went to carpark and smoke.was quite pissed and i seriously don't understand what the hell you want.getting don't understand everything about you.you do things really makes me don't know what to do.make your mind and things clear before you decide to start a move alright.ya,i do have feeling for you that's why i hold on.i give you chance and pray hard that i will stop knowing any bad things about you.i seriously very tired.if not i will give up everything about you and i wil did it.i don't bother when you never do it again but i really don't wish to know much more anything and make me pissed.
went back home,thought the music send finish but it took damn blood long la k.i eat my dinner and i'm very full.nothing much more to say.just very tired.
sorry to wake you up.take care youself.waiting for you
Monday, September 04, 2006
7:02 PM
today,
is a very boring day and totally spoilt my mood.
i think i can only just pass my chinese and bloody fail my english listening.
i really don't understand what the hell the paper write man.arghs!
morning,5plus wake up.went to toilet!stomach not feeling well.don't know what happen.from 5plus pain till afternoon.=[[
charlotte came to fetch me to school.anyway,thanks.=]] after chinese paper,go throught my answer with tingting and guess i really make alot of mistake.thanks for your breakfast and sorry that i did not drink finish the milo because i really not feeling well.but i manage to eat finish so must be happy =]]
went back home and rest for 45minutes?i don't really remember.i should be waking up at 1230 but i wake up around 11plus?felicia message also wake me up and my mum also came into my room and call me to wake up.chat on the phone before i went out.felicia message and tell me say she at my house downstair and wait for me just to send me to school.really thanks and i know you always want give me susprise but you can't.i don't need any susprise and i seriously scare people send me to school when they never say they want to send so i will confirm.
went back to school very early because tingting was bored.so i reach early.still very tired but i didn't sleep.paper start and i damn blur?=.='' till i really don't understand what the hell the radio talking about.so irritating.
the weather is very hot till i got nothing to say.i took cab home after my paper.reach home wanted to sleep but chat on the phone.after that,online awhile and i got to go because that charlotte came to meet me.she insist to meet me.went to eat and i'm very full!feel like vomit.stomach till now still pain.=[[ what to do?
my day very bored.tomorrow is you and colleen match.all the best to both of you and i believe both of you can do it =]]. i read your blog and i seriously thinking should i continue love you.i don't know just feel that maybe i should not continue when i already know the answer.your answer is already so straight forward and i know that i don't get the chance to be with you.but i don't regret i got a crush on you.maybe i can get you off my mind soon i might not know or maybe i will still continue goes with my feeling.everyone is making each other suffer.she love me,i love her,she love another her.sometimes,i just don't understand love.is just so complicated till i'm wordless and i don't know what to do.there are many people out there i can choose but i don't know why i love you.i will rather be alone and rather stay single and don't want to be with anyone for a moment too.i know that i shouldn't have crush on you but i did it.feeling just so weird.you will love the person for no reason because it goes by feeling.i'm thinking what so good about me?i seriously don't worth any of you to love me and wait for me.partly also my fault to make you guys to fall for me.i'm sorry for what i have done and i know i can't do anything much to repay back.take care everyone.Saturday, September 02, 2006
5:21 PM
didn't update for don't know how long.never bother to go and count how many days i have no been blogging.many things happen and going on.bad news have lots than good news but i think i can't even find any good news to say?or maybe should i say i'm back to single,nobody control me and i'm just back to myself and gonna study hard for my N's level for now.happy that i pass my prelim for three subjects only.eoa and maths haven't take yet.next monday and tuesday going back to school though is holiday for everyone but those who take N's or O's level have to go back just to take exams.
bad news is i break up and alot of unexpected things happen.but i decide and choose this decision so i won't regret for what i have done and decide.i choose to be alone for a moment and wants to be myself.thanks for those people who are always there for me no matter where i am,sad or happy.i appreciate for what you guys have been doing for me and i'm very happy to know you guys as my friends,my love.thanks
long stories to say but i still say it out to those which wants to know and thanks for advice too.is better being alone and being independent.i know i can do it and i believe you can do it too and you will do it well.maybe this is not the time but i believe you will get use to it.whoever you are.i believe you will do it when you really wants to do but don't ever regret for what you have decide and going through.if you really regret there's always still hope and a change for you.but of cause not everything u can decide for yourself.but if somethings you really can change than why not just change it?but somethings really do need times to change it.like me!=]]
i willing to take time being alone and see what to do.but i know now i'm going to be alone and like who i like and study hard for my N's level.other than i shall leave it away.
i know i'm torturing alot of people who wants me to give them a chance.but i'm so sorry.especially rayven.what you have done for me i'm very touch.not everything a person can do it.so what i have say to you is not trying to hint you or what.i know that i hurt you by saying i would rather fion to send me to school.but somethings just can't get it right and i'm just stating the fact.if your hearts there,you done it long ago.i didn't blame you for what you never do as the same by what fion did.but i'm still happy that what you have done for me for the past years.i will repay for what i have too.but i guess you get affected by it so maybe i should stop doing those which i shouldn't do and maybe it can make you give up since you want it to be?sometimes i really don't know what to do than is right but i know nobody can do it so well and perfect.sometimes,really feel that i've suffer myself alot because i know what i do,it will happen.stubborn people like me will just makes their life sucks.really think whether know so much things is good anot?feel that being mature is a bad thing.why can't i just be stupid abit and maybe somethings will not happen and i don't have to stress up.
thanks charlotte,ones use to be my dear and everything.but we are over.i know you are trying to turn things better but guess i think i'm making the things bad.i know you are trying you best not to make me frustrated,i guess i'm still frustrated and nothing much change?i don't know whether will i still want to patch anot.i seriously got think not to repeat the same history with the same person because i find that it will only makes tow person suffer if drags for years like my ex and me.both of us are over and guess she's very happy without me in her life and she have a wonderful stead just in her life and is hers.anyway,if patch things maybe gets better but i choose not too because my heart is not yours and no longer just yours.my heart have someone else and i would rather being alone and stay single and don't want to have any stead for now.if i really have any stead,i know i will hurt the person and never give the person happiness and why not just be friends?nobody can predict the future so i can't too!maybe future do let me choose back the same person if not other people?life is just a game and is depends whether how good can be handle it ourselves.love is always just so weird that do makes people happy and hurt.i find that this age no true love?or should i say that i don't know how to handle my relationship.i should say i'm just too flirt why not just being alone?i would rather be with the person with no status maybe in future?i would wants to be faithful?to the someone i like now but no one else?i know i'm unfaithful!or maybe i'm only faithful to who i start to love?i seriously want to have a relationship that is happy and can really last long.maybe i shall decide this frwenly?hahas =x
anyway,i'm strong so those who are worry for me can don't worry for me so much.i'm just who i am and i never do anything foolish.so don't worry and will meet up you guys some other time.i think i going to stay at home just to study hard.i have been slacking since yesterday when i say i going to chiong for my studies.gosh.what am i doing?i shall not use computer and phone much and i really going to study?will update some other time when i'm free.
L0VE Y0U GUYS S0 MUCH AND THANKS T0 TH0SE WHICH L0VE ME S0 MUCH T00.MUACKS =]]*
anyway,thanks for your explaination and sorry for accusing.treating me for who i am.
