Monday, May 29, 2006
2:15 PM
yesterday evening,
daddy call my handphone and say he will not be at home so early call us to find food ourselves.
so i told mum anad she ask me where to eat,i can't think anything so i called baby and ask her where got nice food to eat?she name alot but i very fussy.hahas =x sorry
in the end,we went to toa payoh to eat sizzler.after eating really very full.
after eating went back home,my dad sitting near the door and his face and whole body very red.he drink alot and he went out of house around 11plus.i call my brother to call his phone to show some concern as daddy love him alot too.so he call but he didn't pick up the call.he called back and my brother pick up the call ask whether where is he?he say he went back office to do some service.my brother came and tell me say he thought i 3years old boy.
after that he came back home ask why so late we still haven't sleep.me and brother say back him.you also haven't sleep what.after that,i call my brother to go his room and sleep and i also off my light and sleep.around 2plus i wake up because of my mum.she wake me up and say my dad in the kitchen,standing at the window shouting out loud.i still very blur and giddy.headache and never bother so much.want to sleep already i heard someone shouted loudly and i thought i'm dreaming,i can't sleep well.heart very pain and feel so lost and can't get back to sleep.after that i heard he shout again and i wake up.anytime my heart will drop out.i very scare and the fear is there.i went to toilet and came out.he lock the kitchen door and can't open.i ask my mum say take ruler and open.but she call me to call my dad.i call him quite a few times than he came and open the door.he's drunk already and he hurt his hand.he thought he wake me up and he say sorry to me,i went to take cup and pour water and he suddenly bang the door.my whole body also not standing well and steady.he ask me why i haven't sleep?i say i wake up because i went to toilet.but he knows i wake up is because of him and i think he feel more hurt that i never concern him and i'm so calm.that's what my mum say to me.after that,i went into my room and sleep.i couldn't sleep and i heard their conversation.my tears suddenly roll down and i cry awhile.i very tired and i sleep.4plus wake up again because of my mum,she told me their conversation and i never really listen to what she say just force myself to open eyes and answer her back.she told me say my dad went out again and shouted just now.i think i'm too tired till i really never hear anything.
m0rning,
my brother wake me up around 7plus.
he told me say my dad came back and i say i know because i heard key sound
my brother took my phone and play.he ask me why baby called me so early?he pass me the phone and i pick up!if not i still sleeping.around 11plus my mum wake me up again ask me whether want to accompany her go down eat anot.i turn here and there,really very headache.still want to go back sleep but i still wake up accompany her and eat breakfast.just came back home not long.after eating,we went to ang mo kio park and walk,walking and chatting.her topic always the same and we cry in the park.if she really die because of him i will forever hate him.she told me what she do the past.she try alot of ways to die but she still can't die.she eat alot of pills and drink and on the gas but she still can't die.daddy know i will hate him forever if mum really die.i will never forgive him.i message felicia just to tell her that if i really go malaysia i really can't go her house to celebrate her birthday.i'm sorry.but the way she reply really makes me feel she so attitude.mum say if this continue your dad maybe not going to malaysia.if i really go,i reach singapore already night.i never blame for what you reply as you don't know anything.anyway,just leave me alone and i don't wish to talk to anyone.
weiru,just call me and ask if i want to go out because she at ang mo kio.i told her say sorry that i can't go out because i have to accompany my mum.i also don't feel like goint out with anyone and i rather go out with my mum.today wanted to go my aunt house together with my cousins.but we didn't go because of them.i really getting to dislike my brother.things happen and he still can go out and play like none of his businees.my mum told him that my dad don't want this house already and he say my dad won't.he came to my room and say i still can sleep?i don't know wake up how many times and i'm lack of sleep but what the hell he have done?i wish to scold vulgarities.arghs.i don't feel like staying this house and i hate it.maybe going out with mum later.
