Monday, June 19, 2006
9:52 PM
i g0tt 5days never post!
i'm getting tired of my life and days and my family
16th of june,friday
that day,went out with baby to watch moive at plaza singapura.
the show really very nice!runaway vacation is very nice show and very funny.
after that,went to felicia house.she make pizza for us to eat still not bad but i do nicer than her.
after that,we sort of play at her house awhile and went back home.
17th of june,saturday
went to east coast with fion,baby and ah g0ng
went to blade for one hour and i'm very tired
after that,something happens.but around evening things are fine.
went to near aunt house there to eat dinner.but i never eat meal.i ate 3bbq chicken wing.so nice!reach home around 8plus
18th of june,sunday
went to my aunt around 12plus
swim till 3plus?i also don't remember.
around 5plus my mum came to aunt house and join us.
i forget that yesterday is father's day until baby told me but i never really bother or care.
is been for years and we never even celebrate father's or mother's day and i just don't understand what's going wrong with him being like that.i getting fcuk up about him too.reach home around 11plus.i called his hp and he never pick up.reach home and i saw his phone is charging in his room.before he came back,my mum told us not to sleep and wait till he's back and see his face!after that,he lock himself in the kitchen and don't want to open the door.my mum standing outside the door and i looking at him.he look back to my mum.i told my mum not to stand outside because he will be more angry and his totally mad.but after awhile he open the door and called my brother and lock themselves inside and chat very long.my mum and i don't know what's going on inside and after that my brother came out and called my to go to my bed and sleep and his eyes quite red.he cry before and i asked him what happen and what my dad told him but he don't want to tell us the coversation about he and my dad.but after that,my dad lock himself again and not awhile i went to my brother room and ask him and he tell me some of the part and he forget alot of things.d0ts
went back to my room i can't sleep well and i'm very tired!went i want to sleep baby message came in and my dad suddenly came in my room and my heart beat seems to stop awhile and i'm thinking i will have heart attack anytime.i called baby but she never return call.that time,i really very scare and i call her another phone and she call me back.i heard someone shouted and i thought is my dad shout and i'm crying because i'm very tired.why everytime,the night it happens all this.his making us suffer and i don't dare to go out till i want to go toilet and i went out and he's sleeping on the floor than i realise the sound i heard is he fall on the floor and is not the first time.yesterday night cry alot =(( after i know my dad sleep than i went to sleep.but the fear still there and i can't sleep in peace.i'm sorry that i attitude baby because i'm quite pissed that what you have said went i can't make it and i really feel so lost
today,
wake up around 9plus meet up baby
i'm late and i'm very tired.i'm lack of sleep!!!
went to mac and eat breakfast.went to walk around central and went to tian di shop to see comics.after that,went to bubble tea shop eat corn and drink bubble tea.went back home and rest.went down bought food for my mum and i don't know my dad is sthere eating till he called my name.chat with him awhile and i went back home.chat with my mum till she cry.just now watch 9pm show.the woman on gas and suicide and she say if she really can't take it she will did that too and i'm thinking if she really does and she die i will hate him forever and won't stay at this house anymore.i feel like running home and don't want to stay in this house anymore.everyone say home sweet home but i don't find that home is that sweet!is jus sucks to the core and i will hate him to the core!if he continues like that and i can't take it i'm not going to stay and run away.just fuck up about this man.
