Tuesday, April 03, 2007
1:45 PM
i don't know whether things are going right or wrong.
i don't feel like bother anything much.
i'm at home the whole day today.wanted to go out with ite friends.but ernie not free,wendi come mense.cant possible just ask me out with minkai.abit weird.two person go out.somemore,i don't go out with guy just only me and him.daddy call me go central quick cheque but till now i still stuck at home.lazy go.i don't go out alone too.will stay at home.guess,today my parents not working?the weather for today also not very good.
don't know if tomorrow still going out not.if not i'm gonna stay at home again.holiday kinda bored but still i love to stay at home to be a pig.sleep so late than wake up.keep online and listen songs.nothing better to do.
maybe somethings i'm still avoiding?but somethings i just dislike to bother because nobody gimmi chance at times.so why should i bother much.i know i treat some people unfair.well,i still know what im doing.maybe some people just cant accept the way i am.maybe this is why things turn out badly when im stubborn.well,everyone do things have their own reason.people might dislike.like how i dislike felicia doing now.but is her life,is my life too.we choose our way.whatever we do now,we don't feel regret.whatever happens.things turn out bad.we will be blaming ourselves?but i will never regret.even if i do,thats past.alot of things do affect me alot not only you guys out there.whatever hurt i get before,i maybe treating people unfair but comes to love.you will just love the person and treasure people around you.i'm doing it.but guess,i still hurt some people and some people hurt me too.somethings,i mayb think is simple well,i guess some people will think more than i do.what ever happens,i will still move on and live happy.felicia,i really wish you and your boyfriend last long but i really hope that you wont regret for what you have decide.seriously,i'm very angry for what you have done to tiff like how martin treat me.at that time,you are so clear that what you want and just because of a three days two nights guy everything just change.you just turn straight and just leave everything a side without thinking how do people feel and think.maybe this is call love,selfish.but is over.only you,yourself know it very clear that what you are doing but i find that at times you do things really very rash.you always repeat your mistake.i hope,this time what you have decide and choose is not a mistake.i may not know who the hell and what kind of person he is.i also don't feel like knowing.cause whatever i say now,guess is not important to you.to you,you will just follow your heart and go where it should be.i dont wish to know and quarrel with you and if i really know guess you also don't wish to know.because you are avoiding and hiding everything yourself.you just wana be with him long but nothing else.don't forget what you promise.this is the distance that we are having now.so you understand whenever i have girlfriend we will always have a distance.that's because you will put him as your first than to bother other things.you are making people hate/dislike you especially tiff.you treat her really unfair.you should know that.you get happiness and she get hurt.somethings is beyond your control.somethings you are in the fault,you should know.but what is done already done.when a person do a mistake.is hard for people to give a chance but when time pass.somethings change.the chance will just come to you.is depends whether you treasure it anot.that's all i want to say to you and some people out there include me,myself.
take care everyone.
