Wednesday, May 02, 2007
7:04 PM
yesterday night.was damn fcuk up about everything
was damn fucking tired of everything being with you.
after what i said,i off my phone awhile and was thinking you will call?but you didn't and i receive your message and saying i make you drop your tears.why do you even drop your tears when you don't even find that you are in the fault too.how much you say you love me so?you make me feel that you are playing with me even thou how much you say you love me.what's love to you?what's jealous and worry to you.what fuck shit is all.just fuck,mess with my life again and again like fuck shit.
do people reflex for what they have done?do they even feel that they are wrong.and even if they feel their wrong why mistakes is always repeat?whoever hurt me i will return double.even if i really treat you bad is because you treat me bad.i'm the one who start i will end it.now is you start it so i will help you continue.why not.life is a game.i know i'm stubborn.so does you.whatever i said.i will remember.do you even remember everything that you tell me?you can just change it and say you take back your words.whatever we said and hurt each other,it will always remember my mind,my life.that's why people always say i hold on the past than the future.give a person chance don't have to even tell the person.is depends how you prove and improvement that you have done,you will get the person reply str8.
whatever i have done,i know.this is what i return from you isnt it true.you say you are not.after that you message me tell me say if you don't do it i will take more granted?this two months.even if i never tell you that i give you chance,in my heart i always give you a chance but you keep hurt me too.i'm not the only one who stop us being together.maybe you think that if i give you a chance all this things won't be happen.ask yourself charlotte gung.you are the one who start a move to do all that and even take pictures.so what if i do it too.i don't find that i'm wrong and actually you are the one who stopping each other together.both of us feels that each other never reflex.since there's so much quarrels going on so what the fuck being together since we aren't happy at all.you already make me lose everything to you already.lose hope,trust,confidence.i no longer believe you.what's bad to you?treating you cold is call bad?if i really treat you bad do i even have to give bloody damn about you and even drop tears.i realise how much i love you that's why i drop my tears.after that day,i no longer drop tears.yesterday,i drop my tears again.i was damn fucking bloody angry with what you are doing and you don't even fucking understand what i'm angry.it was too late cause you still finds that the pictures are not wrong.is all about pictures!is not whether the person is str8,crook.and i don't deny she's pretty than me.even if you save other people name as girlfren and save my name as baby so what?what i see is the fact.too much things i have see.even if you explain,the one i see is the most hurt one.im better than you,didn't take pictures even thou i meet my close friends.hello,you are a active and so what if she's a str8 one?so what if i take pictures with bung.we are close friends too.this time,i take the pictures with her* is real and i mean it too.i'm not your girlfriend and i'm still jealous is because i loveyou.but after everything i really give up.we both already damn tired of everything already.so does you.what's torture to you?what about me.till now,you are still so selfish and still keep think that i don't understand how you feel and keep say so you understand how i feel?keep use this sentence to say back me.at least i unlike you put people name as girlfriend.hello,you got so many girlfriend and pretty babes out there so stop finding me and keep say sweet things and come near to me to melt my heart and keep hurt my bloody feelings and stop playing even if you say you don't and how much you love me.all sucks to the core.
today,
wake up,wanted to go back sleep.was thinking whether wanna go back to sleep anot since the weather is so nice and i'm so tired.whole night hp was off,morning than on.was suprising that she never call me.she send me a message say she worry about me.i'll not do foolish things because of you.you listen up,i already give up on you and i will not patch with you even if you ask so cause i got girlfriend and i love tanjiayu only.get it?what you say to me,now whatever i say,FIONA OH WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER.thanks for making awake always.end up,i still attend to school.morning reach school.the first person i saw was nicol.he say morning to me and i find it weird but still i did reply and smile at him in a weird way.haha.after that,sit behind alone,wendi accompany me and sit.she study but i never.was writing things.haha.when for lunch at 12.when to eat bake rice.the serving was damn full for one person.haha.nicol came to eat too and he say hi.he's kinda weird huh.but he's funny and cute actually.pretty gay.=x he went to wash hand and he come and shake hand with me with soup.i'm kinda dumb,slow and disturb by him.well,he make me smile. =]] thanks.was kinda emo in class when we having thy lesson.after lunch,went back to class.fazli gimme lollipop.hehe.and i don't know why he keep wanna take pics with me.so we take two i think.he keep disturb me also.crazy.izzat suddenly came and martin keep disturb him.he just sit beside me and ernie.and he do some stupid action and make me laugh.the whole day was quarreling with her* guess she do have friends there accompany her.especially her girlfriend.haha.well,i have friends around me cheer me up.after so long,you cheer me up and make me laugh and make me smile again.was suprise that you message me,still i will not forget what happen that day you make me drop my tears.is the past.i'm no longer angry already.haha.after that,was close with eugene.we chat alot.he's sweet and we are close again after so long?haha.not very long actually.after pie lesson finish str8 went to tamp and take 22bus to amk hub together with wendi and yz.he wanted to buy things but we miss the stop.cause we girls are sleeping.haha.so he went to amk buy.going to meet duncan soon.i miss her* hehe.muacks. <3
