Tuesday, September 11, 2007
11:41 AM
have been away.
isnt it great for me and some people out there =?
everyday,was thinking and don't know what the hell im fear of.
my heart damn hurt whenever i think of it.
if i can stay in other country i will never be back here again.
yes,i may wanna avoid things happening here because i can't accpet the fact.
even how much talking we do it seems useless.time prove everything?haha.
god can't make decision for us at times,problems lies on you and it depends on you.
whatever.im sick of tired by doing the talking always.
misunderstanding always come towards me.it so obvious that they don't need me.
i had enuff too.devil me gonna be out soon =))
what's the point of being a good person at times?when they are the one who making the mistake and pushing the blame.haha.wtf.
make this clear to everyone that if you guys wanna talk to me,prepare that i will shoot it back because i have my own view too and if you guys can't bloody accept it than don't talk to me because from the start im just stating the fact.want me to shut up than rather don't come and talk to me.isnt it meaningless talking to someone and that bloody person just don't give a damn about you and telling you saying that she don't care about everything anymore.fuck man.this is what you guys show me.im just returning back.i done nothing wrong so i guess i don't need you guys anymore.
i aint wrong at all. =)
at the same time it prove that you guys don't understand me at all.
need me just come to me and telling me so much,after everything is still me,the one doing everything and settle everything.what's the point?end up,the return is all this.thanks man.
i will always remember,you guys are totally selfish.want chances from someone when you guys need it?at the same time you guys don't wanna give the others a chance.so petty of you guys and im so pity for you guys.
thanks for the one that suggestion and stupid idiot of you guys doing somethings that actually you guys are the one taking the consquences at the same time never bother to think so far.
isnt it great that everything happen and it turn out so nice.
yesterday,
attend to school.walking alone isnt it a bad thing huh.
schoolmates but not forever friends.even thou don't have them,life have to goes on.
don't have them i still have other people to chat,doesn't mean that the whole world people is dead.teacher ask me,why i sit alone but never join them?there's nothing to talk so why should i even bother to sit with them.being alone at times isnt bad too. =))))))))))))))))
never bother to tell her much to create more problems out and more misunderstanding.
im clear for what i have said.unlike some of them out there.action shows everything.isnt it clear that what you guys have said and done is totally different.don't bullshit in front of me anymore.
i aint the past of me. turning bad to worse and worst. =?
things happen will always change a person.how long am i gonna change?
never will i be the good one. =]]]]] get this clear everyone.
chatting on the phone with sharon and left the school before school ends.
on my way,happy chatting with her going to meet leon and pris up.char came along.all smokers.kinda shock that she tell me saying that mz also smoke.g0sh.surprising.she went off with mz for trging.
eat double cheeseburger and it settle my 3meal a day. =x
chat with leon alot man.she damn pissed with herself.damn funny.
never expected you will have a idiot ex gf.lucky im not her friend if not i gonna walk in a miserable life together with her.im not saying that she's dumb or mean to say her but simple action she don't even do it.so it so obvious that she choose this way than let it be.
at times,i really wonder whats the point of getting back?she will never awake and is so obvious.
left alone around 6plus going 7pm?change bus back home.
reach home,do housework and watch tv then bathe and rest.
today,
wanted to attend school but never.
daddy accompany mummy go hospital so im alone at home.
told them saying that im attending school. =\
going to find my dear sharon later.i miss and loveyou.muacks.
she's getting sick and i realise im getting sick too.
i don't know why im so tired this few days.every night sleep quite late.
starting work soon and im gonna be dead. =^ irritating.
im sorry nicholas.is not i don't believe you and i don't see there's any point that i gonna trust you by what you are saying to me and everything.it had been so long and still,why do you even bother to wait.i thought you already give up on me and no longer telling me all that.
im clear that we can only be friends.thanks for telling me everything and i can't get it right thru my mind because im still a crk.
i had enuff of everything but still,im right here waiting.
i mean it i do it,my answer to you is a cfm answer.
making disappointment to me again and again never make me fall.
because,i always stand up again and again to face this test.
i can take it doesn't mean im strong doesnt mean im independent.
nobody is independent at all is because there will always be someone to be there for you.
even there's no one i blif there's god helping.
things isnt going right,i know.who is the one who want it this way?
nobody is clear by what they are doing at times,mistake always repeat.
is that what we want?answer and picture is so clear.
simple answer,if people can avoid they choose to run away and let everything down and everyone down because they choose not to even settle it themselves.no matter what,there's one day the matter have to be solve.
maybe to some people,if i don't settle the things people might forget it and give me a chance?
chances given so much when they are still survive and what if they are gone?want chances again?get it from?
regret always stay
im getting myself awake.
