Thursday, September 13, 2007
8:33 PM
today,
wanted but never attend to school and still considering whether should i quit.
daddy fetch me and mummy out for lunch.heavy lunch and after that meal make me feel very weak.i feel like vomit and i feel like fainting but of course i never.
that meal is my breakfast lunch plus dinner,really make me feel damn sick.
i have been tearing while im helping my dad.they didn't know about it.
on my way home,i feel like tearing again.just fuck man.what fuck i've done.
i realise she really look alike ade.walking the same path as sharon.
but sharon is moving on already i guess.
telling things different and different timing and date.
wow,isnt it great that im a silly who always trust her and even believe at the same time putting hope.want me to flirt being selfish who don't bother about how people feel,yes is hard for me because too many things happen and make me aint the past of me.
the past of me who really don't even give a damn about anyone out there or even how they feel for me and everything,is totally numb.
why the fuck am i the one who bother about everything.
what's true love to you telling me different thing always is all you know.
playing with me.you say you don't.make it clear what's playing with me.there's alot of meaning.telling lies again and again.fuck it off man.true friends or even good friend.now im even your friend you have been lying to me.im the one who auto all along.saying that you won't be moving on and you are moving on real fast as i do.telling me can't let go all kinda lies.sweet and bad stuffs all in the messages.now i know why she say you are the one that really know how to sweet talk.telling me you are being yourself same time being a selfish who knows how to think about yourself and friends.maybe that girl is better than me.oh whatever.wanna move on than go ahead.i aint like you who love to lie telling and giving fake answer and hope.
yes waiting is all i do and what i know.cause it come out true from my heart and i mean it.
fucking tears never stop dropping.i really damn it fuck up with it.
is it true that you want me you just come to me and you don't want me you just leave and just find the others.am i just a hotel to you.
