Thursday, September 13, 2007
12:54 PM
went out to have breakfast,lunch plus dinner with my aunt at jack's place around evening.
really had a heavy dinner.is not a great dinner at all.haha
we chatted alot and i told her say im not gonna study and i wanna quit.
i told alot of people and everyone is like asking what am i gonna do after i quit.
if i know where im heading and i know what im going to study then i quit.
yes,my mind already set that i wanna quit school.alot of people wash brain me but,i really feel that im damn wasting time.i needa rest and im damn confuse!
reach home around 8plus?helped my dad to do his work.
online n helped sharon to do somethings then watch tv.
on the phone with my dear sharon for one hour,we never stop laughing and her that meimei damn cute and funny.
fiona is fat and she's getting fat! =\
yesterday night sleep around 3plus going 4am!
wake up around 11plus.mummy woke me up.
if not im still dreaming and i nearly cried and i feel like crying after i woke up.
i missyou alot. =^ =\ =( =% even in that dream i really don't understand.
it goes the same as reality.
chatted with mag and nicol yesterday night and he suggest me to finish this year.
even if i finish this year i can't get any cert too.studying more than half a year im learning nothing.yes,nobody love to study.everyone is forcing themselves to study.i totally got no interest and im not making any effort and at the same time people around me giving me answer to pass my exams i ain't happy because im not the one who know how to do but the others and i really wanna study hard but i can't get it thru my mind and i bloody don't even understand what the hell is going.she teach me everything still i don't understand.maybe im slow and bet that teacher totally got no patience to even teach.that's the impression that she gimmi and make me no longer talk to her or even learn anything.even they gimmi answer i copy blindly i don't even know what the hell is that.
some people ask me not to study and just quit and just work with them and give myself a break.
well,i needa break even thou im quit i will not go work as a full timer. =)))))
some people ask me to quit and go for the course that i really want.it really make me consider alot.
i told sharon about it,i know she's unhappy because she want me to study and she actually wanted to help me but damn it.i really don't understand and if i fail and i go up to next year i still needa repeat everything this year.should i or should i not attend school?im late already.i guess warning letter is coming to my house soon.yungzhi already got it.i guess the next one is me!
should i go down orq?haha.i know you miss me. =d i never bother to think much about relationship soooooooooo please stop qus me and even want answer from me,thanks people out there who have been qus and want answer from me. =s
i know who i really want,at the same time i guess is gone.
result seems to be there and even thou im kinda awake still,holding on.
love is a foolish things by doing all this for your love one?haha.
but everyone is doing the same thing isnt it true.that's why love is blind and we are more blind?
