Friday, August 22, 2008
10:49 PM
i dont wish to continue this life.
i really dont understand why you have to do this to me.
but whatever,sorry.im not gonna bother anything much about you.
you lied to me,partly is also my fault.most of it is my fault.i do it wrong first.i dont expect any forgiveness from you.i really appreaciate how much you love me but just too bad,after knowing that what you have done towards me,thinking back about the past and everything that you have done for me so much.i felt that,im very silly and stupid to believe every little single words that you've said to me.you dont even know how much i wanted to change for you and be yours.but never expected you will do this to me too.so i dont feel angry or even sad over your doing.just kinda disappointed in you.so my dear,i hope you can get someone else that truly loves you.i dont worth your love at all.
how much you love me,is just like how much i love him.even no matter how much you have done for me,my love will never change.simply i love him.love is selfish,but i just wanna be with him.i do feel touch n even tears how much you have done for me.but too bad,my heart only have him.he's just like me,know how much you love me and how much i love him.but just too bad,i dont mean to treat you this way and this is how he treat me back too.maybe towards you,i did not give any chance for you to explain but i did,it just that you never realize it.
take care my dear,i will never forget how much you have done for me.
whatever happens to me,i will never regret with my decision to stay and be with him,always stand by his side forever.just like how you have done it to me.i sincerely apologise to you that i've betrayed you at your back lots of time.
anyway,baby.
i miss you badly ever since the day,you have went overseas.
take care yourself and i hope you will be back soon.
every little single words that i've said to you is true.
i'm a straight forward person,i hope that i never scare you away.
i dont wish you to be the same like me,fear and afraid of someone who love you so much.
iloveyou baby.muacks .)
Saturday, June 14, 2008
11:02 PM
i guess,i forever will not get any answer from you.
even whatever qustion i've ask you,you choose not to even reply.
just let me know,is either you answer me if not you can just tell me you dont wanna answer me anything.stop avoiding and makes me wondering so much,will you.
i've tried my best and to do my part.you choose to keep everything from me and keep quiet.
hide everything from me so wth you want from me and what am i suppose to do to make us not to quarrel anymore?to turn everything smooth for us?
our quarrel makes me really damn tired of everything.
not the first time i wanna let go everything.what you know is to shout when we start to talk everything out.
no matter how much time we give each other,we wont change for each other.
why not just go your way,find someone else that you truly want?
everyone say the same thing even the books prove it to me too.
maybe is really good for us to let go everything.to end everything.
i dont wish too.this is not i want.but it seems that you want it.if not you will try to do it well for this.the way you show me is just like you dont even care.this is how you handle it?
since you give me your last answer,telling me there's nothing to say.means there's nothing to talk between both of us,let's not wasting time on each other.you are free.
i guess,you waited for this day quite long.
i seriously upset over you,but i feel too tired to continue too.
i shouldnt have believe,im such a fool to listen you to make myself suffer.
i wanna leave here!bring me out of singapore!
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
3:19 PM
maybe all along people who are with me always think that my friends are much more impt than the one that i love.but i did not.
i know you always think that.just because i do have much more things to chat with my friends than you.
everyone have their own friends and freedom.you are controlling mine.
you are a selfish idiot.is not people wanna break us but too many people ask me to let go.
after all is my decision,i choose to hold on after so many chances that i have given you,things have not been smooth for us still i dont mind being suffer just because iloveyou.
but you always expect me to give in to you and listen to what you say.
but ask yourself,you always anyhow throw your bloody temper towards me for nothing.
i guess,no manners is you but not me.the one who always hanging up my call is you.
even small matter you also wanna quarrel.
dont always think that whatever you say i have to do it too.
seriously pissed off with your fucking attitude too.dont say others but yourself too.
want me to prove to you that you are wrong i guess is hard too.
we both are stubborn,too stubborn until im sorry,im letting go everything between you and me.
feel sick and tired of you.i dont deny i always doubt you and never trust you because the time i wanna trust you is the time you make me disappointed in you.
there's nothing much to talk about it.the quarrels that we had,did not make our love strong but everything is breaking into pieces.
your heart and mind still have her,isnt it true?she's the only girl who give in to you too much until you are taking advantage of girls.you never ones think that you are at fault.
you make me feel that you never ones serious with me before.im just that some one spare for you to use and to be there for you.i never fail to be there for you,you know that too.
i choose to stop because you make me do so.
i believe you can do it.letting me go is very easy thing for you to do it.finding other girls is much more easy for you.wish you all the best then.hopefully,you find someone that you really love.and show your care and concern towards her.
a true love to a girl is to show everything out.but you did not.you make me cant feel your care and concern so dont talk about your love to me.i totally cant feel it at all.
stop telling me all those bull shit stuffs that you say you wouldnt do at all.yesterday,you have said something that you shouldnt even said.thanks,but i have seen your true colour.
dont always think that i will always return to you even i have do it so many times.
dont dare to test me and dont be proud of yourself.
i choose not to play you because i have feeling towards you.Monday, June 09, 2008
3:39 PM
is it so difficult to understand you?
why do you choose to hide everything to yourself.
why do you stop everything and you actually makes me stop everything too.
i dont understand how you bloody handle your relationship.
you make me feel sick and tired.you are so selfish to me.
you only bother how you feel but nobody else.telling me you wanna take care of me.
this is how you show your care and concern,but sorry i cant feel it at all.
when i needa your care and concern you wasnt there.what you do is just enjoy yourself.
when you are sick you just want people to bother you and know you are sick and taking care of you 24/7.
quarrels make me irritated and consider alot.you make me upset.
i intend to give up.chances given and i tired but i think that we dont suit each other.
you know what you want but as for me,i dont know.yes im still young.
i dont know what i wanna do and stuffs.no point forcing me telling me what to do.
im sorry.im leaving you soon.i just hope to be with you and enjoy the time with you.
im selfish too.but i just cant let you know so much.
im sick.really sick.not love sick.
im half dead at home. .( help!
Friday, June 06, 2008
1:28 PM
i ve quit my job. .)
taking long break and i will be finding job soon.
repeating history?
i feel tired this kinda life.
going back with you,really thought everything will change but i guess is still the same.
after all,i dont understand you.i appreaciate everything that you have done for me.
i had enough with you by your nonsense.im sorry but i guess i did my best but if you think i did not im sorry but i will just leave your life and you go find someone else better than me.
i dont deny i dont have confidence in myself as i think that i aint that someone that you want.
but you,yourself just want someone to be there for you and always accompany you?isnt it true.
everything takes time but human always force till nobody dont want anything and rather stay single the best.
well,everyone want freedom but everyone just wanna bother and control.
just one word: love.
everyone do get jealous and so they will tend to care.
but somethings will turn sweet or sour.
i guess our situation have turn sour.we dont understand each other at all.
we have different goals.at least you know what you want.im happy for you.
im happy knowing you,the time having you,enjoy being with you,the care and concern that you show.but just too bad i cant feel your love towards me.
everything is over. .) we are still friends.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
3:19 AM
it's been so long that i never update my blog.
well,nothing much to say.
everyone is saying i gain weight and im getting very round now.
going to start work tomorrow again.gonna be damn bored.
still,have to work if not i will not get any income.im getting POOR!no money!
spenting alot just for only for two weeks.mummy control my money as i ve spent too much till she's afraid i might spent all my money inside the bank. .(
anyway,just wanna say i do miss my classmate even thou i leave the school already.
wanted to stop working but still i choose back the same place to work but im not going to work so often like how i use to work in the past.i do miss most of the cust there too.
everyone of them treat me very nice,love and dote me.
i gonna miss my beloved duckie as she's going thailand soon.
just meet her up today and realise she's also round alot.
have a nice day with her today even thou we are doing nothing,just sitting down at starbucks chit-chat for hours.just take care yourself and enjoy your trip.dont think so much.
miss most of you out there who i never meet up for quite long.so hope to see you guys soon if we got the TIME. .) always love.
Friday, December 07, 2007
1:28 AM
feeling tired at work.
feel so sucks.but never mind. =)
hmm,what should i post?
well,i couldn't sleep at the moment but everyone asking me to sleep early.
gonna wake up early later =\ at 7am.
going to see doctor,after that going down to find my sweet gf to do my hair?then going to meet up my godpa to pass him his xmas present.
everyday having a long day outside. =^
tuesday,
attend school for exams,
thanks to you again.helping me again and again.
if i really get to next year i really have to study.can i don't?hais.
after school went to east point together with eugene,hock ann and gf to repair eugene and my phone.after that,accompany eugene to had lunch and he bloody lie to me to go to the food court and don't wanna eat!i was rushing time but i still put time for him.humph.still wait until his friends arrived then my gf and i left.
went down to city hall to meet up mlyj.walk to suntec to find the mp3 shop because my gf wanna repair her mp3 but too bad,they say they can't repair.haha.i dont't know what she shy about.i keep help her to ask around to find the shop!take train down to town and went to taka.
thanks my dear gf n mlyj accompany me to buy xmas present.
i spent 100plus.i still got more to buy. =)
after shopping meet up felicia to pass her,her xmas present.
had a long chat with felicia and her bf.left around evening.
went down to work place to pass xmas present for my sweet gf.
always love you my sweet gf,i feel so happy knowing you and having you around.sorry to give you so many troubles and worries.thanks for your treats. =)
went back home around 11plus.baby send me out to the bus stop.
so busy and nice of me!buy stuffs for people got to travel down to pass it to them.
went home and came out again to meet up my dear gonggong.went to playground,after that went to mac to eat corn!
wednesday,
went to work.totally got no mood.
i don't know why. =?
went home str8 after work.
went out to mac with mummy to buy corn eat!
thursday,
actually got work but last min tell them that i can't work.
woke up around 11plus.take my time,don't know what i'm doing also.
after parents went out to work me and my brother smoke.
call my dear darling and chat with her till 12plus.
after hang,prepared myself.went to maybank to take cash.
took bus down to orq to find my dear babe to give her surprise and pass her,her xmas present.
she was shock.ate pasta at there.after her work,accompany her see doctor.
after seeing doctor,ate med,went to suntec.happy outing with her today.
suddenly daddy called me,ask me to go down to his office to do his printer.so took train down to amk,he came and fetch me.leave his office around 7plus and i was late to meet up my baby at yishun!took cab down to find him.went over his house.damn bored!
left his house around 10plus?took bus back home,he went down to work place while i can't go down.stupid him.anw,i'm glad that he regret going down because he got to wait for xiao qiang to finish work then he can go back camp together with him.
walking back home that time,brother called.ask him came down and accompany me to go buy corn and cheesburger!growing fat and indeed i grow fat.damn it.
